Dear MOB Society,My son’s ADHD is out of control. We’ve tried everything to help him and nothing works. I feel like such a failure. Can you help?
Life on the Spectrum
My son was almost four years old when he was first diagnosed on the autism spectrum. Initially I took him to see a psychologist who told me that she believed he had ADHD. I didn’t want to hear that. A few months later he was diagnosed with Sensory Processing Disorder and as I worked with specialists and our pediatrician to get that under control it became obvious that there was something to what that first doctor had mentioned.
My sweet boy was angry all the time. He was destroying things in frustration. One afternoon he actually pulled a pipe out of the wall and left us with no water for 18 hours. He has no impulse control. He flies into a rage over any little frustration. He doesn’t sleep well and has a hard time focusing on anything.
We tried occupational therapy for a while but hit a wall when his destructive behavior took over. I changed his diet: no sugar, no dyes and no preservatives. I made sure that he had plenty of time outside to run and play. I bought magnesium supplements and tried essential oils. I tried every single parenting resource that I could think of. Nothing worked. In fact it seemed that my son was just getting worse. I felt like a failure.
A Change in Perspective
For years I spent time focusing on all the negatives about my son’s ADHD and being on the spectrum. I was consumed with all the things that my son couldn’t do or struggled with. I would lay awake at night going over all the things that I’d done wrong. I was his Mommy it was my job to help him, but I couldn’t. I didn’t know how. One night I pulled out my bible and with tears streaming down my face in desperation I read these words:
And we know that in all things God works for the good of those who love him, who have been called according to his purpose. Romans 8:28 (NIV)
Did you read that mom? That boy that is driving you crazy. That passion that comes out as aggression and destruction. That inability to sit still or that ability to be hyper focused on something all has a purpose. God will use “those boys” and us worn out and weary moms for His glory.
Sweet mom that is at the end of your rope, hold on! Let go of the feelings of failure and frustration. Grab onto the hope that is found in God. Pray over your son and look for all the ways that he will be a blessing to others. May that stubborn child learn to be firm in his faith. May those overactive young men find ways to get busy for the Lord. And may you, sweet mom, find rest in the arms of the One that will see you through all things.
This post is part of our first series of 2014, Hope for the Messiness of Motherhood. Find all of the posts in this series here.